can you please pardon my tears?
there are some pent up emotions that sometimes can only be vented through crying.
i had my fair share of those.
i cry easily,
with any strong emotions,
unless it's happiness,
in which i would laugh my head off like some lunatic.
but for some reasons,
i'm distressed.
and i cried
so hard my head hurts.
so much.
i really don't know the purpose behind my being so tired.
i want to be any other people around me.
but God knows i can't.
give me the strength, please.
i'm a student again!
school finally started!
spent the first day around in school attending talks,
going for eca fairs and understanding what being a student is all about again.
pretty fun,
had the people from my OG for company.
very glad that we are sucha bonded bunch.
:)
ytd was well, funny.
haha.
i got lost in the school compund before my 8.30 am lect
and was of course, late.
luckily i got down at the right bus stop,
which's the one that everyone got down at,
and found people who knew where the theatre is at.
or i'd've probably given up searching and head home.
comparatively,
NTU is entirely too big for my liking.
i guess i should spend more time trying to find the various lesson venues
instead of bumming around.
heh.
but i can just foresee how bad it'll be when the tutorials start.
i'll probably spend one hour trying to find the tutorial rooms.
BLEAH.
won't have any more lessons for the rest of the week.
which is just nice for me since i only got hooked on FMA recently
courtesy of dearest en.
LOL.
it's funny and touching
and i can finally understand her craze of animes.
pretty much like some tv serials which you'll want to follow up to the story,
only that it's cartoon animations and the events are much more exaggerated.
:)
oh yay i'm getting a laptop!
just a quick one.
went sentosa ytd with the angels and company.
was raining but cheryl insisted it's a passing cloud.
lol.
played volleyball, met a bunch of ah bengs with one being extremely cocky,
poured after a while, walked in the rain, admit that the rain's not going to stop
and the sand will be very wet even if it did and decided to get out of sentosa.
i headed for home while they had lunch.
was pretty fun still though my plan to suntan failed miserably.
BUT i still had semi-sunburned cheeks though i have no idea why.
(i decided it's because that is the part of my face that's like closest to the sun since it's "protruding" and high.)
and none of my other body parts showed any signs that it's been in the sun.
but i like the reddish cheeks!
made me look healthy.
LOL.
celebrated mel's birthday at bar celona with her friends and bong.
brought her cake for her and gave her a surprise.
:)
and omg the cake is delicious!
LOL.
yeah very tired le.
have going-to-get-cramps-anytime arms and aching limbs.
i hate working today.
shit.
where did the people pop out from?!
UGH.
i cannot sleep.
:(
and i keep repeating those songs
that makes me wanna cry.
"open yours eyes, just say goodbye.."
i wanna sing ktv SO MUCH.
anyone wanna go with me?
before school starts?
which is pretty impossible i guess.
SIGH.
absolutely random.
i am so fickle.
i changed my layout twice within 24 hours.
LOL.
i buckled under peer pressure from xiu and vic.
haha.
both thought this is nicer.
but i was pretty sad.
cause xiu said it's damn obvious that i'm just shifting the boxes around
and not creating anything new.
but what to do.
i have zero creativity what.
as if you all don't know that.
bleah.
and of all the thinking i've done today,
which is alot by the way,
i conclude everything is nothing but wishful thinking on my part,
and i should stop obsessing and get over it.
and after so long,
i still cannot fucking let go.
damn it.
been so long.
finally met my bunch of RV friends after i-dunno-how-many donkey years!
been ages since we had an outing together.
haha.
shopped around,
crapped and chatted over what we've been doing
and cracked lame jokes as usual.
and of course,
with the kee-siao-forever duo of me and yh,
we succeeded in making a fool of ourselves at several points in town.
i guess i won't been returning there for a while.
LOL.
neoprints!
i look so happy. :)
layout galore!
changed my layout.
finally finished it.
:)
am working on another.
finishing soon!
the holiday's almost over.
as august approaches there'll be so many things i'll have to get used to.
so many people are gone.
i'll miss them.
in fact i miss them already.
sigh.
i feel lonely.
what stops guys from telling their female counterparts that they're pretty?
class outing yesterday.
couldn;t stay because of the too short notice.
but stayed till 2 plus anyway.
met people whom i haven seen in eons!
at least we can meet before school opens for everyone.
which brings me to omg!
school's reopening!
someone find all those braincells that i leaked out during the hols back to me please.
i'm so dumb now.
:(
and mahjong is so addictive.
although i hate losing money
i still cannot help but want to play it.
people can you play without money next time?
so i can satisfy my itch without the pinch?
LOL.
it rhymed!
and i'm bored!
as usual.
i'm badly in need of sleep actually.
:)
momo is pretty good!
though the decor and everything reminds me too much of chinablack.
but the crowd is lovely.
LOL.
lotsa cuties,
not too overcrowded
and strong enough drinks though it's free flow.
hee.
not a bad place to be.
at least we have one more choice from the veryboring sg clubbing scene.
proceeded to zouk after that.
not high
too crowded
and all the counters are full.
resorted to dancing with our bags which is like a big no-no.
how do you squeeze past people while trying to protect your bag at the same time?
though if my bag is closed i'll gladly use it to push a way through.
but it's those tote bags wo a zip.
sigh.
luckily they have a table there.
drank a measley shot of brandy they had left and some beer.
hardly high enough.
but the music was good at least
so the mood is still pretty high.
sigh.
unplanned
and felt badly under-dressed.
but still,
pretty fun!
:D
cheerios.
sulky.
today's a killer.
the crowd seems to love rushing in when we're understaffed.
plus i'm in sucha bad mood today.
didnt even have the strength/mood to talk when i reach home.
i just felt like hiding in some corner and sulk till i die.
i don't want to be a female anymore.
there's something seriously wrong with me.
it didn't use to feel like this.
and for a moment i just feel like sleeping and not wake up to escape the pain.
:(
depressed.
can someone cheer me up?
anyway, feel like checking out club momo.
but the whole world seems to have gone/going there soon.
can someone go there with me so i can see how it's like too?
sigh.
boredom galore! you get the idea.
sigh.
i think i'm falling sick.
kept having those irritating headaches.
maybe it's magraine.
i don't know.
it sucks that i've to drop onto bed right after i reach home and i can't do anything else.
even thinking hurts.
i'm miserable.
i feel out of touch with the world.
i need people to message me more often!
treat it as helping me get used to my phone yeah?
but in actual fact i just want to feel less bored.
sigh.
new phone.
alright.
i got my new phone le!
samsung e630c.
:)
having a massive headache now.
i hope someone can operate on me
and take out that throbbing nerve that is probably sucking my braincells out
with all the pain it is causing.
:(
am puzzled but no mood to think about it.
maybe i should just dismiss it as oversensitivity on my part
again, i guess.
i so need to grow out of that.
sigh.
osiris! oi!
okay.
i've gone from being mia to bia!
:D
you missed me right?
i know you did!
*BIG hopeful smile*
anyway,
the camp was much much more fun than i thought.
i expected like lame or stupid games.
but no!
i'm lucky enough to get an OG full of
gung-ho people.
heh.
so everything was made more exciting and hilarious.
the cohort for econs is really pretty big (relatively).
in my OG alone,
there're at least 5 econs students out of 18 members.
and there really aren't many guys i guess.
out of the around 70 to 80 people who went for the camp,
only a pathetic number of 5 are guys.
1 of which is in our group.
whom we nick-named "rose".
LOL.
okay,
long blow by blow account of what happened below.
reached and played the usual ice breaker game.
not very fun,
and for a moment i was unlucky enough to be stuck in the kind of boring everyone-not-enthu group.
but when the first game, photo hunt, commenced,
everything changed.
we were like mad people rushing here and there.
LOL.
it was one of the games that i found most fun in the whole camp too.
then we pretty much began to start bonding
with the cheers led and everything.
then we had dirty games which left us pretty disgusted
since we are not able to bathe, but only wash off the dirt from our bodies.
bleah.
after that we proceeded to changi chalet
which i initially thought will be very small and we have to squeeze together,
therefore the instructions for us to bring sleeping bags.
but it was much much bigger
with 4 rooms, 4 bathrooms, and a pretty much well equipped kitchen.
it's pretty much like someon's house only more empty of course
and more dilapidated.
anway we played more dirty games and had many good laughs
before we were finally allowed to go back to our chalet to wash up and slp.
by the time everyone had bathed it was already 3 am.
argh.
lack of sleep!
yesterday was very very funny.
had cleaner circular games in the morning
since we were supposed to go out and play our shi zhi lu kou game.
boring in the day but very very fun in ther afternoon onwards.
played some games against Sobek, another OG.
won 3 out of 4 games!
don't know how to express the funny stuff in words.
but yeah,
it was FUNNY.
then during the journey out of changi to tanjong pagar for the shi zhi lu kou game,
we were scolded by some weird indian passenger in the same bus as we were.
he was shouting sth like we were making a lot of noise and all those shit.
but
excuse me,
it was a full crowded bus
and all we did was talked,
not even laughing or shouting
and he thought it was noisy enough to scream at us?!
madness.
since when have u boarded a bus that is full and crowded yet quiet?!
*rolls eyes*
according to the programmers,
we were the only group who rushed and ran oimmediately after getting out of the station to the place we wanted to go,
haha.
in their words, "osiris siao de".
LOL.
but we were so tired, coupled with aching thighs,
that we stayed in the food centre much much longer.
went back then it's the pageant and talentime night.
performed a lame and pretty funny skit called "NTU superidol",
you shld know what it's like.
then came the scary part.
we walked to the old changi hospital which was located very near to our chalet actually,
and we didn;t know about that.
the OGLs there said some stories to create the mood
while i just felt like sleeping.
haha.
anyway,
after that we were dispatched to another chalet nearby
where the seniors made a "haunted" house.
but as the faces are very familair we weren't really scared at all.
occasional shocks of course,
when they suddenly raised their voices or pulled our hands
but in all it was still okay.
some groups made it really funny
and our OGLs told us they were very exasperated with us cause they didn't really succeed in scaring us
and we were the first group to go in
so they got pretty discouraged.
LOL.
everyone was quyite scared after the whole thinbg, including me.
heh.
got a bit scared when we were about to bathe
especially since the mirrior is like facing the shower.
we could see the old changi hospital from our chalet!
so yeah.
but all was fine.
didn;t sleep much again but today was also pretty fun.
games as usual
one of which our OG offered to be splashed by a bucket of water with our OGL
when he was supposed to suffer the forfeit.
unity!
i like the people there.
we are pretty bonded i guess.
hope there's an OG outing soon!
anyway, blur me was too tired on the MRT and missed my stop.
had to get off at dover instead and change bus!
lol.
okay tired le.
going to sleep.
niteyy.
disappearance
had a pretty tiring day yesterday
with the restaurant being full and only 4 people working.
the reason why we're so short-handed?
sigh.
let's not talk about it.
anyway,
in around 6 hours i'll be going to orientation camp!
so will be MIA for 3 days.
don't miss me!
:)
movies.
initial d is
disappointing.
sigh.
when they say the ending is abrupt,
i didn't know it'll be
that bad.
half the cinema was going "huh?" when it ended.
and the other half probably already watched it at least once before.
and btw,
i
do not appreciate people whispering in their not-quite-soft voices telling their friends what's to come.
spoilers.
but i still want to catch it again
since i missed at least 10 mins of the beginning.
sigh.
stupid jam.
to
you:
cheer up and jia you1
remember the balloon i gave you?
"hang in there!"
preservere and i believe everything will be fine again.
i've seen much sweeter sides of you two!
i know it's easy for outsiders to say
but yeah,
i really give you my best wishes.
and i haven seen you in ages!
you're still alive right?
heh.
i miss you!
i cannot stand it.
caught war of the worlds today *edit* with shu (he requested the mention of his name so tada! your name just graced my blog! LOL).
my reaction throughout the movie is like *drops jaw* all the way.
some scenes are really quite horrible actually.
and it is more terrifying when you know when things came to be that way these will be the kind of things people will do.
kind of sad and scary to see what violence and cruelty people can be driven into during desperate times.
sigh.
that's exactly the kind of reaction steven spielburg want to incite in the audience i think.
but yeah.
the show is pretty good!
and i think the aliens are CUTE.
not scary at all.
hee.
and right.
super alot of illogical parts in the show.
cannot give you the examples for fear of it being a spoiler.
but yeah,
you'll agree with me too.
i cannot decide if my hair is nice or not.
though what i do know is that i cannot wash my hair for 2 days and cannot tie my hair for 2 weeks.
someone save me.
one day of that and i already found myself half blind with hair all over the place.
BLEAH.
and everyone tells me i should have rebonded my hair eons ago.
and yeah, now i did it
and i don't know if it's nice.
how?
grossly ungrammatical.
but i cannot be bothered.
too upset to think of much actually.
though i think this is already pretty good under my state of mind now.
i cannot stand it.
why is everything i do not good enough?
what else do you want?
supporting my education doesn't make you God.
i don't have to tolerate such stuff from you.
i'll rather loan from the banks anytime.
i don't know why i must take these shit.
i really don't know what else you want.
i've already done my best so can you just shut your trap?
i'm sick and tired of listening to you say all those bullshit when i'm the one going through the worries and crap.
i don't see any crap coming from you when
he failed.
and i must take it from you when i actually did it?
WTF.
argh.
i want to scream till my lungs are sore.
someone get me a punching bag for my birthday please.
